A friend of mine came to visit my son for his birthday. Her and I have been friends since we were officemates some 2-3 years ago. Although it is still pretty short to claim it a well-founded friendship, I am convinced our relationship is one that would last our whole lives.

     Just like the last time we had a good talk, Starfish ( thats my pet name for her) and I always gossip about the people we’ve worked with back in PS, our previous company. Aside from family, our ex-officemates are our favorite "pulutan". hahaha Unlike many others, ours has always been a constructive discussion on what have happened to the lives of our former colleagues. As a matter of fact, I feel so happy for most of them. They have already found their partners, some has gone abroad for a greener pasture and some has stepped up to a higher position in the company. We always wish people to move on and prosper. And I wish my friend the same.

     You see, Starfish never had a bf. Worse, she is not even open to the idea and she’s already my age. I love her so dearly that I pray she finds herself a man she could spend her whole life with. I am sure there is someone out there who is bound to hold her hands and whisper sweet nothings to her ears… but she just doesn’t like to get involve with someone…. not even go out for a friendly date. I told her so many times… she must have a family. Someone who will take care of her when she gets old and gray. Someone who will make her soup when it gets chilly. Someone who she will get cozy with. I know, I am getting so romantic… but I can’t help it. I want her to experience how it is to fall in love… to be in a relationship… to have someone who loves you… NO MATTER WHAT.

    I guess, it’ll still take some time. No matter how much I press this issue, it is still her that would decide her fate. Our lives are almost entirely different now. Somehow, I feel like I have stepped farther away not only in distance but in tasting reality and its beauty. I now have family who supports me, a family that cares for me,t hat makes me so happy and a family that I am totally in love with.

     Maybe, I am just not understanding her choice. Maybe I am just afraid for her. But she is right somehow. She is in a status that is so clear. She loves what she’s doing and she is not tied up to someone who might not even be deserving of her and worse, might be loving someone else. And i could not disagree with that.

    Well such is life… we all must know what we want and be happy with it. Moving on…