It took me some weeks to analyze… how i really should react and what i oughta be doing. My dearest friend have left me somethings and personal valuables i was not really sure how to take care of…..

I think I pretty much did more than she could have expected … and did it wholeheartedly it stabbbed me so hard when i realized it didnt love me back as i thought it would.

At first, i tried to stay away to thinking how badly it hit me. I thought, this is not about me… its about them … for her. But she’s gone and even if she were alive, she wouldnt have wanted me to endure this shit.

So you see there is where my confusion started…. where does friendship start and when do you really qualify a relationship as friendship?  Do you get hurt over petty things like being left out by people u haven’t really met and considered your friends? You don’t cry over it. You cry because u made effort  for this so-called friendship that has not been materialized and yet and it was all disregarded.

I thought it over and gave it all consideration i could give…. but never made me feel good. Why must I ? We are NOT even friends.